Dress Code

One of the theater companies in my town has a tradition during the first rehearsal. As well as the nitty gritty of passing out schedules, contact lists and scripts, they do a round of introductions. Everyone tells their name, the part they'll play, and maybe a line or two about themselves - for instance, "This is my first show here, and I'm excited to work with all of you." Depending on the show, these introductions can be a lot of fun, like hearing my friend say, "I'm Blair, and I'm playing God."

Years ago, I worked on a production of "Pericles," and I introduced myself this way: "I'm Sharon. I'll be a costume runner, and any time I can work with men in skirts, it's a good day."

Anyone who's known me for any length of time knows about my love for men in kilts or Polynesian wrap skirts. Togas are nice; gladiator skirts are better. YUM.

Drag is an entirely different thing, and it doesn't affect me the same way. Drag is the equivalent of pageant hair and makeup; overdone, not necessarily feminine or attractive. I occasionally look at drag queens and wonder, "Is that how you view being female?" Most women I know spend their day in jeans and sneakers, not heels and sequins. Still, I had a drag queen do my makeup for my engagement photos specifically because he was better at doing makeup than I was. Anyway, I just want to be clear that I'm talking about men in skirts made for men, not ones in clothes made for women.

"Pericles" was nice for me, because our male cast spent the entire time in short (about mid-thigh) tunics and leather sandals. It was visually very appealing - which is good, because, as a member of the costume crew, I had to help clean the dressing rooms. They're lucky that I was feeling positive about them when I had to clean up after them. You don't want to clean a dressing room that's been occupied by lots of men in full body makeup. Just mucking out the showers was quite an experience.

I enjoy almost any opportunity to hang around with men in skirts.

These are my friends, Bruce and Bryan, and Bruce's brother, at a friend's wedding.

How fabulous is that? Bruce got married in that outfit.

I love traveling to Hawaii. The scenery is gorgeous, and the men know how to dress.

Sometimes, I even get to see men dressed this way here, on the mainland.

I love photos of David Tennant, Sean Connery and John Barrowman in their kilts, especially with tuxedo shirts, jackets and ties. I loved it when Patrick, one of the hosts of one of my husband's favorite TV shows, "Screen Savers," wore his utilikilt on the air. I repeat, YUM.

I have tried for years to talk my husband into being Zeus, or Caesar or a gladiator for Halloween, with no luck. He won't even consider it. SIGH.

Come on, men. Come on, designers. There's an untapped market here. They're comfortable. They're cool. They're easy access, and you'll never zip yourself into a zipper with one of these babies. I live in the desert; maybe we can talk men here into tunics.

No?

SIGH.

It's OK. I'm used to disappointment.

To K or Not to K?

I know what I should do, I think. I should either stop reading message boards, or I should at least stop being surprised or baffled.

Still, there's a reason that I used to say that my autobiography should be titled, "Deep and Profound Alienation."

(As an aside, there's reasons that I stopped saying that, as well. Some people thought I was kidding; I'm not. Some people knew that I wasn't kidding, and decided that I was deeply depressed and feeling unloved; I'm not.)

Human interaction is tough.

I had my oldest children in the mid 1980s. That was the first era, at least, in my memory, in which parents started obsessing about preschools. I'd read newspapers and magazines, and be totally amazed that people were signing their kids up for "the right schools" in utero. Sometimes, they'd have to wait until the baby was actually born, and they'd worry that some child born two hours earlier would get the last spot at a choice school. They'd fork over money equivalent to college tuition for a toddler's classes. There were huge waiting lists, tutors to help your kid master the interview, tutors to help parents master the interview... it was madness, in my opinion.

Of course, people didn't want my opinion. I was a young and inexperienced parent, in a backwater rural area of a state that's often a punch line. I'd be taking walks in the park, making peanut butter and jelly sandwiches and taking naps, and even people who loved me occasionally worried that I was doing everything all wrong and dooming my children.

Of course, cocaine use was also rampant in the 80s, and I figured that I'd take my word over a strung out New Yorker's any day.

Even people who knew and liked me personally occasionally said things like, "It'll be OK because you're an involved parent, and you provide opportunities for intellectual stimulation." I called those "opportunities" by other names, like "playing with toys," but whatever. Semantics.

I thought that I did a good job of trusting myself and not getting my feathers ruffled, and I still think so. I find, though, that even decades later, there are things that still annoy me.

I hate it - any stay at home parent hates it - when someone says, "You don't work," or, "You've never had a job." I had a job. I have a job; actually, more than one. My main job, my career, the one I felt was most important and into which I poured the most time and attention, was one for which I got no pay and no recognition. People who talked to me earnestly and frequently about a woman's right to chart her own course and be whatever she wanted to be did not value my choices. That was irritating. OK, infuriating.

So, too, was assuming that my choices were not actual choices, but inertia or ignorance - that I was where I was, doing what I was doing, because I felt that I had no other options. Are you kidding me? Do you have any idea how hard it was, in the age of Power Suits, to swim upstream, against the prevailing theories and practices? It was HARD. I did it because I had chosen to. It would have been so much easier, and more socially acceptable, to do almost anything else.

My kids didn't attend preschool because I didn't think that they needed it. Every now and then, we'd be invited to some Mommy and Me group or other; I'd attend, because I didn't want to turn down a sincere invitation, but I don't think that I ever went more than once. I don't do groups well. We had friends, we had church; my kids were fine and I was fine.

I do NOT think that everyone's choices should be the same as mine. I do NOT think that my kids are the same as everyone else's. I do NOT think that parents who choose a preschool program are bad parents, or that they're shirking their responsibilities, or that they don't love their kids. I think that one size will never fit all. I thought, silly me, that other people thought the same thing, and that they'd be just as uninvested in our choices as I was in theirs. I was wrong.

"But early learning is key! Children learn best before they're three! They need every advantage if you want them to get into a good college! Even if they don't need the academics, they need the socialization!" people would say. "Your kids will be behind when they get to kindergarten!"

The thing is, my kids were learning. We never, ever did flashcards or tutors or workbooks, because that's not how small children learn best. They learn best by playing and experiencing.

(I thought about linking to studies that say as much, but you know what? If you agree, you'll agree without them. If you don't agree, you'll disagree even with them. If you want to see if such studies exist, that's what Google is for.)

Think about it. Did you ever give your child formal lessons to teach them who Mama and Dada were? Did they need time at a desk to learn what a doggy, a cookie, a ball were? No; they learned it in context from everyday activities, and repetition. If you're even halfway on the ball, kids learn other stuff the same way. "What a cute black doggy!" and, "I love those blue flowers" and the like will eventually teach colors. I once heard a teacher say that her students came to school not knowing colors or shapes; how is that even possible? How do you prevent a child from learning those things? We could have actively tried to thwart our kids, and they would have picked up their full name, address and the like as well.

We never gave penmanship lessons to our little ones, but they all picked up writing by watching us. My oldest printed her name for the first time at age 2 1/2. She was coloring in a coloring book, and she labeled the page the same way she'd seen me do it over and over, with her name. She had an upper case L, followed by a circle with a tail (a lower case a), an arch (a lower case n) and another circle with a tail (a). I enthused all over her. "You wrote your own name! You did such a good job!"

She gave me a pitying look. "That's not good, Mama. That's a Q," she said, stabbing her finger at her "a." (And, technically, she was right.)

"You did a very good job! It says 'Lana,' " I said. She would have none of my enthusiasm. She was completely unimpressed with her amateurish efforts.

We were having dinner in a restaurant the first time my toddler son wrote his name. One of his sisters said something about how little he was, saying, as an example, that he couldn't even write his own name. "Yes, I can!" he insisted.

"Have you ever?"

"No. But I can."

"You can not!"

"Yes, I can!"

"Mom! Tell him he can't."

"Give me that," he insisted, pointing at the keno tickets and crayons on the casino restaurant table.

"OK. Show me!" his sister said, handing him a crayon and paper. He carefully and neatly printed "Alex."

"When did he learn to do that? Did you show him that?" His sisters were astonished.

"I didn't," I told them. He'd simply seen me write it often enough that he could recognize and mimic it.

As far as "socialization," a concept which  I find to be fairly ridiculous, and usually synonymous with "institutionalized behavior," my kids had plenty of positive opportunities to be in a group. At church, for example, they were in their own classes from the age of 18 months. Even in nursery, ages 18 months to 3 years, the kids have not only play time but story time, music time and arts and crafts. By three, they're expected to sit quietly in their chairs and raise their hands during 45 minute lessons and 45 minute "sharing time" that includes singing and games. My kids also had cousins and friends with whom they could practice the finer points of sharing and taking turns.

They got to play in the dirt and make messes. We explored bugs, trees and plants. We went on walks and fed ducks at the pond. They had toys and TV like Sesame Street. (As an aside, the creators of Sesame Street hoped that it would deliver "a free, high quality preschool experience" to low income kids, allowing them to start school equal to their more privileged peers.) We hung an alphabet wallpaper border in their bedrooms. They had books, books and more books, writing utensils, paper, art supplies and parents who ate meals with them and modeled table manners. (Almost every time we were in a restaurant, someone would come by and compliment my toddlers' behavior.)

When they started kindergarten, we told them (all 4, born over a 12 year period) that the readiness screening was a "meet your teacher" event. When she (they were always women, the kindergarten teachers) asked them to perform a task, they viewed it as either games or simple conversation. The teachers would then always tell us how "advanced" our kids were.

My kids are smart - I'm not discounting that - but intelligence is only potential. You can't guarantee an outcome based on possibility.

I'm thinking of all of this because I again responded to a mom's question on a message board. Her son was having trouble with all day kindergarten. After lunch, he would be surly, argumentative and combative, hitting and biting. The counselor suggested that they cut him back to a half day, and things improved dramatically. There's never been any problem in the mornings, and now that he leaves before he's worn out, everybody's happier.

His mom was thinking of taking him out of kindergarten, though, based in part on the teacher's statement that he'd have to repeat kindergarten next year. "Why send him if he'll just have to do it again?" she wondered. She also listed other reasons that she thought it might be a good idea to take him out, including the fact that  he's one of the younger kids in class, and she has to wake her baby in order to pick up her son at school.

I wrote back and said that if their lives would run smoother and be happier with him at home, she should take him out and bring him home. Then I read the other comments. At the time, I was comment 17 out of 17, and every other one said, "Leave him in!" I checked back later, and it was up to 27 responses, 24 of them saying, "Leave him in."

I didn't expect that. Not every child is ready for the same things at the same time, and that's OK. Considering the needs of other family members is OK. Being outside the curve of "normal" is OK. Really, folks. It's OK if we aren't all exactly the same.

Most responders gave some variation of, "He needs the structure." I understand that thinking, but I don't agree with it. I think that we've become so terrified of doing anything "wrong," or of being unqualified, that we collectively feel the need to turn even our young children over to "experts" and then breathe a sigh of relief that we're doing "the right thing."

Some people, though, were outright nasty. Take this comment - "I suggest you take some parenting classes ASAP. Problems with children this young most often reflect problems with the parenting and issues between the parents."

WHAT?

The kid is FIVE YEARS OLD. Calm down! Kids this age are impulsive and tire easily. Yes, they get tired. This same responder also said, "You've been blaming his behavior on him being 'tired,' but I knew that wasn't the issue the first time you said it." I'm so glad that your crystal ball works, but we mortals generally require getting to know someone before we can "know" anything about them. Sometimes we even take the drastic step of actually meeting people in person before we "know" them.

I'm sorry, I'm getting snarky, and I try not to do that. I assume that everyone is well intentioned and at least reasonably well informed (I know, right?), and I try to treat them that way. I try not to generalize or jump to conclusions. But GEEZ!

I've got to assume that people who suggest everything from taking the kid to a psychologist to changing his diet to changing his bedtime are honestly trying to help. I may not agree with them, but, again, that's OK. There is no law of God or man that compels us to agree before we can be good people and good parents. Plus, what worked for one of my kids didn't necessarily work for their siblings, and these are kids with the same genetic makeup, being raised in the same environment. There is no way at all that every person on the planet needs the exact same things, or will respond to circumstances in the exact same way.

That's Issue 1: let individuals be individuals! That may even mean that they (gasp!) make different choices than you do. That doesn't mean that they're wrong or bad or incapable or immoral or ignorant.

Issue 2: It's kindergarten! It's not Harvard Law! Take a deep breath, OK? Kids are still eating paste and picking their noses! It's not required by law for a reason.

When I was in kindergarten, it was only available half days, and there was mandatory nap time. There was not only no homework, there was little book work. I know, I know, that was in the Dark Ages, and we're more enlightened now, and K is more academic, and we have to keep up with other nations, yada yada yada. Tell me: has educational achievement gone up or down in the years since the 1970s, when I lay awake on my nap mat waiting for the teacher to turn the lights back on? If these changes had brought about incredible achievement that had sent our students soaring, I'd say, "OK, I'm on board." They haven't. Plus, I heard the same things when my older kids were young, and again when their younger siblings started school. (There's a 12 year gap between my oldest and my youngest.) We heard frequently that "that may have worked in the past, but it won't work now." Children don't develop any differently than they did in the past, do they?

And let me tell you about tired kids. The only time any of my kids were ever completely beastly was when they were tired. When my youngest child was 4, one of the children's ministry leaders brought her to me and said, "She needs to sit with you. She bit her teacher." Sigh. So she sat with me in the women's meeting, and fell asleep in less than a minute. When she woke up, she was cheery and sunshiny. One of my kids gave up naps at one, and one needed them until six. Again, not everyone's the same.

At this point, though, when I have three adult children and a high school student, I get to stand on my laurels a little. My kids were school ready. They were college ready. A huge part of that is their own doing, but a small part is mine. I gave them opportunities that worked for them. Two have college degrees and one is attending a university.

Without a "quality preschool program." While staying home with mommy. LIGHTEN UP, everybody. It's possible to do a good job with your kids at home. even if you take your kid out of kindergarten.

It's also possible to do a good job, be a good parent, be involved and loving while enrolling your kids in a school starting at age one.

So, if this mom wants to take her son out of kindergarten, THAT'S OK, even if OTHER moms leave their kids in.

BREATHE!